Anger, Humility, Prayer, And Confession
I really would appreciate ya’ll praying about this, because I think it’s important.
It’s come to my attention, again, that my passion comes across as anger. I freely admit that for the majority of my life I’ve been a pretty angry guy. I’ve been described more than once as being emotionally closed off; personally, I’d disagree, not because it isn’t accurate, but because it doesn’t even scratch the surface.
There is one emotion, and just one, that I can tap at will. It’s anger. I freely confess that I’ve been an angry, angry guy for the majority of my life. It’s extraordinarily hard for me to contact any emotion other than pure, unadulterated rage. Because of this, I bleed anger, even when I’m not angry.
Five years in the US Army didn’t make any of it better, it just makes it worse. It added an arrogance to my personality that isn’t winsome or appealing at all. Now, what you get when you talk to me, despite a lot of work on my part, is angry arrogance.
Tuesday night, a good friend was kind enough to bring all to my attention; I’m more grateful for his honesty that I can possibly say. It’s good to have someone who’s willing to be brutally honest with me when I need it.
I need you to pray for me. I need humility and grace desperately. I need a work of God’s grace that is life-changing. What I need is a life lived by God’s empowering grace, that leaves me different from the man I’ve been for nearly 6 years.
I’d appreciate all of the prayer I can get.
Thanks
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Actually, anger is not all that you exude. Nor is arrogant anger. Time was that was accurate, but you have a LOT more going for you than that. Do you still need some growth in this area. Sure. Don’t we all strugle with an area (or areas) for most of our lives? Don’t let the things that could be improved blind you to the many, many wonderful traits that you have been blessed with. You have a keen and curious mind, an enviable gift of translating thoughts and passions into stories that edify and entertain…and sometimes challenge those who hear.
Btw, your message cut off, so I only got half the info.